Thursday, May 31, 2007

A SOLDIER'S WIFE IN DISTRESS -- READ HER STORY AND SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS WITH HER

Dear readers of Unfiltered and Real,

The following letter came to us recently, and its writer asked us if we would share it with all the soldiers, wives, and people from the millitary community that we're connected to. She's facing a very difficult choice in her life (as you'll read about), and needs your feedback and support. Please feel free to leave your comments here or pass along emails to her through soldiervideos@gmail.com.

- UnR


I find myself in a difficult place in my life. I have been married to a wonderful man for 8 years and we have 3 children. When I meet my husband he was already in the army and had been for a couple of years already. My husband was so much a soldier already that I knew when he was deploying before I even got his phone number! I knew I loved "Roger" within 48 hours of meeting him and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him, and that the feeling was mutual. Needless to say our courtship was fast and were married within a few months of meeting.

The first year of our marriage was an adjustment to say the least. He spent more time away from home and I didn't even feel married! I wasn't really prepared for the huge periods of him being absent. I was such a "cling-on" back then I remember thinking "how can I possibly go 1-2 months without seeing him." I felt so sad and wondered how was I going to make it! I was not a good wife the first year of our marriage - in fact I was so much of a problem that the army outright told my husband if he wanted to advance in his chosen field he better file for a divorce! I made a big effort to change once I realized how I was hurting him even though that was never my intention ever!

We continued to grow as a couple and our family expanded. With the birth of our 3rd child came a number of challenges. Our son "Mark" was born 3 months early and required a lot of help and spent a number of months in the hospital before he came home. Mark had a medical condition that caused breathing problems. During the course of the next 4 years whenever Roger was posted to another base we found the medical system lacking and no access to the therapist so the heart wrenching decision was made 2 times that I needed to move back with the children to a larger urban center so that our son could get the medical/therapy services that he needed.

The first time I moved I lived about 900 miles away from where my husband was stationed. So we only saw Roger/Daddy once a month for the first year and then the last 6 months we saw him every weekend because Roger drove home EVERY weekend to spend time with us. Roger would leave work at 4pm Friday, drive 900 miles, and then arrive at the house where I lived with our children. He'd then spend about 28 hours with us and then drive 900 miles straight back to work for Monday morning. Roger then got posted to another base about 2 hours away from where I was living with our children. We moved as a family unit to his new base but found again the services our son needed we lacking and our son was regressing so much so we again made the decision to live apart and I moved back to the large urban center with our children. But at least Roger was only 200 miles away from us this time and so we saw Roger/Daddy ever single weekend (when he wasn't on duty) and I also drove out with our children and spent time with Roger when there was no school for our other children.

During the fall of 2005 Roger was asked if he would deploy overseas and take part in OEF and it was decided that yes he should because by the time he came home from that overseas deployment in fall of 2006 we had previously decided that I was moving back with the children in the fall of 2006 as all the services that our son needed would be available. Long story short Roger deployed and during his deployment I ended up moving back to where he was posted 5 months earlier then planned because our son was able to get the medical/therapy services sooner.

Everything we planned was finally falling into place. Roger came home from OEF and we were FINALLY living together as a total family unit. I couldn't be any happier to kiss my husband daily and the biggest joy was hearing our children calling for Daddy and seeing my family TOGETHER. We adjusted to life as a INTACT family unit for the next couple of months when low and behold he started talking about another OEF tour and how he wanted to go. The difference this time was that it was HIS UNIT going, not like his last tour when he went with a totally different unit. This time it was HIS BROTHERS / his ARMY FAMILY that was slated for the upcoming roto. (We did know during the fall of 2005 that Roger's unit was slated to do a OEF tour in 2008 but Roger chose to augmentate with another unit so he could at least go on a OEF). So now, being a diehard soldier, Roger wants to go back with HIS unit, and has told me that is what he has to do.

This is where I am having a problem. I know my husband has always been a die hard soldier that has NEVER changed. But I wanted him to stand down this tour so that we can be a family unit as we haven't for years. I love having my family together under one roof after going years of only having my family together on weekends and holidays. So, I agreed at first to let Roger train again to deploy with his unit for Jan 2008 but I am finding as he is away training it has become impossible to "shut up and suck it up."

Recently I finally broke down and told Roger that if he still choose to deploy with his unit I would leave him. Roger replied "all my life all I wanted was to be a soldier." I replied "all my life all I wanted was a family." I have tried for months to find a way to understand how a soldier thinks. I love my husband deeply and I don't want to separate but I also don't think I fully understand how a soldier thinks.

I am writing this open letter asking for advice from other soldiers/wives to try and understand how a soldier thinks so that perhaps I can better understand my soldier/husband. I believe if I can at least comprehend how a soldier thinks then with that knowledge I can educate myself thus make the right choice for me and my family here.

Thank you for your thoughts.

Anonymous

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

ARMY WIVES SHOW (and a little memorial day story)

http://www.lifetimetv.com

http://www.lifetimetv.com/

correction to previous blog



HOW I SUPPORTED THE TROOPS ON MEMORIAL DAY

Hello again,

Where to start? This past friday i was walking back from the deli in brooklyn around midnight and pass a man saying something about help and money etc. Now usually im not so inclined to give out money to people randomly in the street. Then i noticed what looked to be a military ID. Many questions later i realized that he was just a regular JOE in the Navy who had wandered away from fleet week and his ship in NYC. Probably to grab some tail and was now late and stranded. Having been in some similiar situations (no specifics) the only proper thing to do was go to the ATM and get this sailor home. Anyway thats what i did for the troops this week.

Best

Brett and Reid



ARMY WIVES SHOW

SO you can go on lifetime.com and watch the first ep. of Army Wives....I wont do it bc I don't want to spoil it BUT I was told by someone who did that they make enlisted wives look like SHIT!! WTF man! Do I need to write someone a flippen letter!?! Whoever did that DOESN'T KNOW ME! UGH can we have a show that FOR ONCE makes us look like good people! Why must this country only feed off of the bad things that happen...There are good things too you know! GGEERR!! I'M PISSED! Sorry I just thought I would fill you in on that...Sorry for the vent! lol Other then that....Have a great day!

Posted by a Great military wife.

I agree with the statement although i believe there are a few bad apples in the bunch like anything else.

THOUGHTS? COMMENTS?

UnR

Monday, May 28, 2007

THIS MEMORIAL DAY...

Just a quick shout out to all of our readers. Hope you all enjoyed Memorial Day, and that everybody took at least a minute to think of our troops, past and present.

Once again it me hard this weekend when I visited my grandfather - who served in the Army during WW2 - how disconnected this American public is from the soldier/military. Virtually everyone my grandfather knew served in the military. The same could be said for everyone in his town, and more or less everyone of his age across the entire nation. In past American wars (i.e. wars in which the draft was used) the struggle and the spirit of the soldier was present in the everyday life of EVERYBODY. Today, most people can't say they know a soldier personally, a few know people who know soldiers, and only some can probably count on their hands the number of people they know who are in the service. It's a different country, a different military, and a different Memorial Day as a result. I can only hope that we're joined today by all the people who don't know soldiers in sending our thoughts out to all of those around the nation who have lost a loved one in this war.

All in all it was a beautiful long weekend in NYC. A few cold ones, burgers on the grill, good rooftop music, the blazing sun...some old school chillin. If anyone out there has any notable weekend memories -- especially those LESS BORING that ours -- lol -- please put em down RIGHT HERE.

Until next time.

- UnR

Thursday, May 24, 2007

DRAGON SKIN ARMOR -- YOUR THOUGHTS???

WOULD YOU PREFER DRAGON SKIN ARMOR?????

Dragon Skin debate goes to Congress

By Matthew Cox - Staff writer
Posted : Wednesday May 23, 2007 5:47:16 EDT
Army body armor officials announced Monday they would meet with members of Congress this week in the wake of recent media reports that question whether soldiers are equipped with the best body armor available.

Program Executive Officer Soldier commander Brig. Gen. Mark Brown made the announcement at a press briefing at the Pentagon on Monday to explain why the Army refuses to allow its soldiers to wear controversial body armor known as Dragon Skin.

The briefing followed an NBC News report Sunday that presented results of independent ballistics tests commissioned by NBC. The tests were conducted May 3 in Germany. At NBC's request, according to NBC News spokeswoman Barbara L. Levin, the Beschussamt Mellrichstadt laboratory did comparative testing of the Army's body armor, Interceptor, against Dragon Skin, a flexible body armor.

The tests show Level IV Dragon Skin vests outperforming Interceptor vests equipped with "ESAPI" plates in ballistic tests with various types of unnamed "armor piercing" ammunition.

"NBC News has blacked out the specific caliber of ammunition used in the tests, because the Army believes that level of detail may assist the enemy. NBC News did, however, share those details with the Army," according to test results from NBC released Sunday.

Brown, who oversees all body armor development for the Army, said Monday that the Army has requested specific details of how the test were conducted from NBC, but so far has not received that information.

In addition, Brown said he questions whether the "ESAPI" plates used in NBC's tests were "certified" Enhanced Small Arms Protective Inserts that the service issues to soldiers deploying to combat.

Brown presented the results of the tests the Army conducted on Pinnacle's SOV 3000 Level VI Dragon Skin vests May 16-19 at the National Institute of Justice-certified H.P. White labs near Aberdeen Proving Grounds, Md.

The tests subjected Dragon Skin against the same test protocols the Army uses to test its ESAPI and Enhanced Side Ballistic Inserts. The vests were exposed to temperatures ranging from -60 degrees to 160 degrees Fahrenheit, as well as being immersed in diesel fuel, oil and salt water for extended periods of time. After each of these exposures, testers shot the vests with armor-piercing ammunition, the most lethal small arms threat in the war.


So if you had a choice would you pick dragon skin over the other vests????

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

OUR NEW VIDEO -- I DON'T MISS THE WAR

Let us know WHAT YOU THINK!!

Monday, May 21, 2007

I DON'T MISS THE WAR (a short story that ends in a poem)

A short story that ends in a poem.

About 5 months ago i was invited to see a friend perform in a Christmas show. I arrived and as I anticipated spent most of the night listening to a variety of christmas songs with one or two Hannukah ( i think thats how you spell it) songs thrown in. At one point in the night a song - which of course i cant rememember the exact title - (something along the lines of 'if a war song isnt right on christmas why is it any other time?') was performed and it struck a note with me. Having been in the military - and only recently out - it inspired me to reflect on a few different things regarding my service and time in. Specifically, the many questions you get regarding if you miss it, or why you do it, and how you feel about the experience in general. So at 3am one random night after the concert i came up with the following. If anybody out there has some writing about their time in the military (or married to the military, etc. etc.), please post it on here and share your thoughts.



I DONT MISS THE WAR
I DO NOT, MISS, THE WAR
I MISS HAVING A JOB THAT MEANS SOMETHING
I MISS CARING ABOUT ANOTHER LIFE MORE THAN MY OWN
I MISS HAVING FRIENDS WHO WOULD DIE WITH YOU AND FOR YOU
AND I MISS MY BROTHERS
BUT I DONT MISS THE WAR
I MISS THE FANTASY OF A PERFECT LOVE BACK HOME
I MISS BEING HIGH WITHOUT TOUCHING A DRUG
I MISS BEING AFRAID
AND I MISS BEING A SOLDIER
BUT I DONT MISS THE WAR
I MISS BLOWING SHIT UP
I MISS FACING DEATH WILLINGLY
I MISS HAVING NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT BUT STAYING ALIVE
AND I MISS FEELING ALIVE
I DONT MISS THE WAR BUT I MISS WAR


So again...if you have written anything regarding the war, your military experience, or your loved one in the military -- whether it's a poem, a story, a video, whatever -- we would love to see it. SO POST BACK :)

- unfiltered and real

THOUGHTS ON THE MILITARY'S MYSPACE BAN

Don't know how many of you saw the news the other day that the military issued a ban on MySpace and YouTube (among others: Metacafe, IFilm, StupidVideos, FileCabi, BlackPlanet, Hi5, Pandora, MTV, 1.fm, live365, and Photobucket) for deployed soldiers at DOD computer terminals.

As much of a surprise as this information isn't (obviously its inevitability was circulating for quite some time beforehand), we wanted to ask all of our readers for their thoughts and reactions to this news.

We stay in touch with our buddies and loved ones overseas through MySpace - as we're sure that many of you do - and we're concerned about how the potential implications of this ban could alter how we communicate with them / know that they're safe. On the other hand, soldiers never needed MySpace and YouTube in wartimes past, so we understand that it's a luxury we enjoy in many ways, and that it has its potential as a security risk.

So, we want to open it up to everybody reading this. Let us know how you feel. If you communicate with a loved one through one of the banned sites, tell us about it. Let us know if you think this helps or hurts the military, and why. The floor is open...

- Unfiltered and Real

THOUGHTS FROM FORT DRUM

Well, we just returned from a week up in the NORTH COUNTRY. For all of you who don't know what that is, refer to 44N, 76W on your handy US Road Atlas. You'll find a little area around Watertown, NY where FORT DRUM, the most deployed base in the US Army, is conveniently nestled in the SNOW BELT of the United States.

The majority of the troops at Fort Drum are still deployed in Afghanistan or Iraq, but we spent some time with a few participants up there on the first warm, blue-sky sunny weekend they've had all year. A couple of our participants are patiently waiting for their husbands to return, while a couple others are transitioning to life as civilians after serving out their times in the Army. Watertown seems chalked full of such stories.

Flags and yellow ribbons hang in just about every storefront and adorn the bumpers or rear-windows of every car. Women wearing wedding rings do their business alone or hang out in small packs of wives. Phones frequently ring late at night and always without warning. Half finished houses are on the verge of sale, waiting for new servicemen to arrive, and veterans to leave. Camouflaged men nonchalantly walk around town, in and out of stores and homes – a sight that would give pause to passers-by in most any other town in the US.

Clearly, something is going on in Watertown that isn't going on in the world that 99% of Americans live in. The war is visible here through the people who support it, and the people who fight it. It is visible on virtually every streetcorner, every storefront, and every stretch of road. The elephant in the living room of most all American homes walks around noticeably up in Watertown, and the people, though weary and strained by the pain its caused, are proud of it.

If nothing else, our trip up north reminded us that we live in a country where most people do not really understand what it means to be a soldier. Most people don't know what it's like to hang a yellow ribbon or a flag, look at it, and wonder if the person they love the most is going to make it back home. Most people don't know what it's like to uproot their family and spend a perpetual winter alone in one of the coldest places in the country because they married someone who swore an oath to his or her country. It's a volunteer Army now, and as a citizen who never considers the military as an option it's easy to forget that it even exists, or to pretend like it can be understood.

So, in closing, we hope that those who pass through a place like Watertown take the time to reflect on what it truly means for many people to live there. We salute the people who do, and wish that the rest of the country made decisions with a greater understanding of their sacrifices.

Come home safe.

- Unfiltered and Real

TOP 10 IRAQ / AFGHANISTAN WAR MOVIES

From sunny LA to sunny NYC, it's been a warm last two weeks.

We finished doing some more shooting -- with some kick ass war scenes -- for the movie that's making this page possible, and now we're back on the trail for new participants.

Some great videos have been coming in so far. We'll keep everyone posted...

Right now we want to talk a little more about movies. Specifically, WAR MOVIES. We try to see everything that comes out that has to do with this war, but know that we don't always get to catch everything, so we wanted to open up the discussion to everybody.

We're going to list our TOP 10 MOVIES / DOCUMENTARIES about the wars in Iraq / Afghanistan, and we'd love it if you told us what did and didn't belong on the list, what we might be missing, and anything else that it brings to your mind.

Ok, so without further ado...

UNFILTERED AND REAL'S TOP 10 CONTEMPORARY WAR FILMS:

1. Occupation Dreamland
2. Three Kings
3. Iraq in Fragments
4. The War Tapes
5. Brothers (Danish)
6. Operation Homecoming
7. Baghdad ER
8. Last Letters Home
9. Control Room
10. Jarhead

LET US KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!

VIRGINIA TECH TRAGEDY

This post comes with the hope that we all take a beat to reflect upon the tragedy that occurred on the Virginia Tech campus two days ago.

We received the unsettling news while filming interviews with some former soldiers who are now working as extras on the STOP-LOSS set. Needless to say, it caused a great deal of pause in all of us. We could hardly believe it each time a new update of the body count came in.

Working on a project that deals so heavily with media, and with people who put their lives on the line everyday, we can't help but think about the way that tragedies like this - and like the ones that occur everyday with our soldiers overseas - get portrayed in the news. Here's to the hope that the families and friends of the victims are given proper time and space to grieve, that their stories are told honestly, and that their emotions are not exploited or manipulated to attract audiences or ratings.

Our hearts go out to all victims of this unexplainable act of violence.

- Unfiltered and Real

UNFILTERED and REAL's FIRST BLOG POST

Welcome to the first official Unfiltered and Real blog post. Exciting.

It's been a couple months since we started the project and we've been receiving some really great footage from our participants so far. Can't wait for the site to launch – of course we'll keep everybody updated.

For those of you that don't know what we're doing, we're in the process of collecting videos from soldiers and their family members and loved ones from all around the country. We're giving many of them cameras, others are using their own, and we're letting them tell their stories, their way. As we're sure many of you feel, it's rare that real stories about soldiers and military families – from their points of view – are told. Most of what we see in the media has been filtered through politics or advertising, and the image of the soldier is often either romanticized or demonized. We rarely see the humanity of the hundreds of thousands of soldiers who put their lives on the line for us, and their families, every day. We're here to try something different.

Also make sure to keep your eyes and ears out for the Paramount Pictures movie that's making this story-telling campaign possible: STOP-LOSS. It stars Ryan Phillippe, Channing Tatum, Joseph Gordon Levitt, and Rob Brown as a team of Army infantrymen who serve together in Iraq. One of the Unfiltered and Real team, Brett Rodriguez, served as a military advisor and helped the writing team on the movie immediately after completing his service with the 10th Mountain infantry division, which included a 12 month deployment to Iraq. Brett is also the younger brother of Kim Peirce, the film's writer/director who's hard-hitting debut film, BOYS DON'T CRY, came out in 1999. Check back for photos and videos of Brett at work with the guys on the film.

So keep your eyes out for our upcoming posts, as we'll be featuring stories of our participants, telling you about what we're up to, and posting many more videos and photos.

Until next time,

- Unfiltered and Real